74 Thoughts

HELLO SUNSHINE,

If i actually CAN think up 74 thoughts by the time i want to go to bed (My eyes are already starting that whole droopy-dry-thing) then congratulate me.

74 cause my Grandpas really old and today was his awesome 74th birthday dinner

1. Unfroze appetizers, salad/bread, unfroze soup, and pie - served cold withOUT icecream and with three (pink) candles to celebrate my Grandpa's age in all it's manliness.  I watched as my grandma tried scooping off the dripped wax off the pie.

Thing is if we took my grandparents out to a decent - or even Five star - restaurant, there would have been something they hated/disliked/& complained about.  When it's my mom cooking the dinner, it's basically against family rules to insult her cooking.

Ended up rolling my ring around on the table cause the conversation wasn't anything to get excited about, and i noticed it just rolled and rolled and rolled.  It never stopped.

If it hit something it either bounced off or glided along the edges.  Finally it hit the butter and ended up getting knocked over.  

Yah, I thought.  Butters my weakness too.

With my whole new "vegetarian" (non-strict) new lifestyle (started yesterday <3) there wasn't actually much to eat except salad and bread <3

all the appetizers were either nasty or meat-full (no offense mom)

And the soup had this pig-meat i forget the name of

The fact that i said i was going to do REALLY good in school this year was a joke.  7th day and i haven't open my backpack since I got home.

Way to stay motivated...

My sister - she has this thing about her where everyone will automatically like her, even if they just see her for five minutes.  

But then she broke her nose twice in her 19 years.  Maybe that's the key.

Anyway, i say that cause this year i also have the ambition (besides good grades) to make new friends.

Specifically one - a guy - haha duh

{Ooo's and Awe's}

Except there's nothing to even hope for - as optimistic as I'm trying to be.

There was the almost-all-year opportunity last year for me to say something, cause every time he saw me he'd call out but i'd just be like, "hey" smiling back.  As if i could have been any more cold or resistant...

But then the problem was I wasn't in that stage yet, where he interested me - sure, i was "flattered", but i had a boyfriend.  What could i do? - he already had enough friends haha and i really am not gonna say I'm not awkward - cause the majority of people are, the majority of our time.

So that's where i leave you.  With me falling asleep to these really honest, yet pessimistic thoughts.  Doubt that was 74 thoughts but those were the thoughts that were jumping around in my mind for the last 74 minutes, so that counts for something.

Maybe.

Sincerely,

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