Maybe the reason i haven't written a week is cause I'm lazy
Or cause i've had other things (not necessarily better) to do
Or cause maybe the guy that's the circle of this blog hasn't interacted whatsoever in the past week
Or maybe it's all the above
I want to be able to say something actually happened, and maybe by some miracle we're friends now, since I've formally met almost all his friends, but not him.
And i want to say i couldn't give a shit, because all the expectations he has about me, and all the ones i have for him would never meet up - it would just be leading to disappointment
But i can't not care, and that's what so screwed up.
I've hardly ever cared about a guy - it either happens or doesn't.
So why him? Out of all the guys i actually talk to
...Maybe it's that it's a hard-to-get circumstance
Or the fact that he's pretty much out of my league
Maybe it's the idea that he was interested first
Or that i'd be competing with half the girls in school (or maybe just a couple)
Maybe it's that this is real-life, passionate, soul-mate, star-crossed love.
....But that seems pretty unlikely.
Since love like that hardly proves to exist
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